Last night I skipped dinner and the session. I just needed time to reflect and time alone. As everyone else walked down to the dining hall, I walked to my car and drove to the nearest restaurant. The mountains around us are so beautiful. As I drove, I soaked in the full magnitude of what God was really doing for me. My life is changing here in this moment and I couldn’t be more thankful.
When I came back to my room, I sat and reflected. I spent time with the Lord and I wrote. At 8 pm as the session ended, I heard a knock on my door and my new found friend greeted me with the concern of where I had been. She and I spent the next four hours talking, sharing and reading some of our work. I know a friendship is forming that I will carry for years now out of this one person that “I just happened to sit next to” in the main session on Day One.
One thing that was funny to me was that I shared with her how God has woken me up every morning that I have been here despite my complete lack of sleep and invited me into time with Him at 4:30 am. Her eyes bugged out. She said, “The Lord knows, that waking me up at that time is not really a good thing.” I still laugh thinking about that. You see, he’s done this before at different times and just as I shared with her it is something that I have fought, trying to sleep through it. Well, last night as I went to sleep just after midnight with eyes that were blood shot and heavied by purple bags, I prayed “Lord, can I just sleep in tomorrow?”
The answer to that is it is now 4:41 am. At 4:22 am, I woke to the sound of a sweetly inviting chain whistle. I woke and I thought, “I wonder what time it is?” As I turned to the clock I smiled knowing that God was kindly and sweetly calling my heart to spend time with him. I wonder if we even have train tracks near here, but whether we do or not, I don’t think I even care because God has wooed me to his presence and I am so happy to be wooed by the One True Living God. In that is where true rest comes!
Laura, what a joy to read your posts from Blue Ridge and watch as God transformed your thinking. We serve an awesome God! I can't wait to see what He has in store as you seek His perfect will!
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