I bought a new fern last night. I have wanted one for such a long time. I always planned to buy 2 for the porch I had three years ago and never did. So even though they don’t cost that much, I finally have one now.
There are heavy rains pouring down outside and I fear that my new fern is going to be flooded and die. Twice I came close to walking out in the down pour to bring her in but she seemed to enjoy soaking up all that rain so I questioned whether or not it was really necessary. Sometimes it is hard to know what the right thing is to do in a situation. You think you know but as you go to do it, you stop unsure of your self and retreat to that safe place.
I have something on my heart but it still doesn't feel quite like a burden. It did to a degree the first time it came up but that timing was off. It came up a second time but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it then, timing must have still been off. Then very unexpectedly it came up again last night through a friend of mine. I am still letting the whole thought of it settle. It does not at all feel like the right timing. So I pray. Lord, is this really something that you even want me to do? How do I do it, then, and when?
A few minutes ago the storm outside subsided some. I knew if I was going to pull in my fern that was when I needed to do it. She is now sitting safely on a side table not as directly in the storm.
I think about Ruth, about what Naomi told her. Naomi told Ruth to go to the threshing floor where Boaz was. This was a place that men ate, drank and partied after all the work in the fields had been accomplished, not a place for a woman let alone an honorable woman like Ruth. Naomi told Ruth to make herself available to Boaz because he was her Kinsman Redeemer. Ruth took a big chance to do this. Her whole reputation was on the line. The safety and security that was provided by him in gleaning in his fields could have been lost. Not to mention so much worse could have happened. Yet she was faithful and courageous and did as her mother-n-law stated. As she approached the situation she was cautious and prayerful looking for just the right time to follow through with the command given. She followed her heart and listened to the Lord. When she knew it was the right time, she did it.
I think things are put on our hearts sometime that we fall through with because it really wasn't the right time but God is just trying to get us ready for when it is. When the right time comes, you will know without a doubt. Your heart will be burdened and you won't be able to resist. You will know that if you do, you are really missing out. I'm not quite to that place yet. God is still moving, but I need to be ready when it does.